I'm struggling with writer's block today. When I started this project, I made myself an editorial calendar. It says that today is supposed to be a personal post. I've started two different pieces, gotten about halfway through, and realized "This is going nowhere." I started working on this one because my creative writing teachers used to say that if you can't think of anything to write, then you should write about how you can't think of anything to write about.
I thought that if I just made myself write for a few hours everyday, I would suddenly become a super writer and would be able to have fully formed ideas, expressed perfectly, flow from my brain and onto your screen. Of course, I'm only eleven days in (twelve when you read this) and of course that hasn't happened. Of course it hasn't! What was I thinking? I consider myself a writer--why was I naive enough to think this would magically become easy after just a few days of discipline?
This has been harder than I thought it would be. Because I feel so passionately about doing appropriate research and talking about things that I actually understand, I often find myself researching a topic, realizing that it is way beyond my ability to write 700 words about it on such a short deadline, and then have to start over. There are plenty of bloggers out there who write about their daily lives and churn out the posts effortlessly. This is a different genre, though, so the prep work of research, writing, and editing is more time consuming.
But I'm also really glad that I decided to do this self-imposed challenge. I like that I'm making something every day, even if it's just a short post complaining about writer's block. I like that I'm learning about new topics. I hope that I'm learning how to research and write more efficiently.
I haven't yet found the ability to achieve the quick turnaround, though I think it's in me somewhere. With more practice, I'll find it.
Would you look at that? I just wrote a personal post. Now I can go check today off my editorial calendar.